TODAY, 9 Nov 2007... the first time I can feel you're moving in my stomach... :)
it is a wonderful and magical experience for me..
it started first thing in the morning, around 7 a.m., when I was still having my bed rest after I was hospitalize. I felt something kicking in my stomach.. 2 kicks..
I immediately sms Ayah to tell him the great news.. He was also so thrilled..
A few minutes later, I felt 3 other kicks..
And some more kicks and kicks...
It feels really great to see you growing..
From the books and websites I read, I can start feeling your moving during the 16th week.. but for first pregnancy, some mothers-to-be may can start feeling it after her 18th week. Now you are in your 17th week.
Thanks my dear.. you made my day.. :)
Keep growing.. stay healthy...
Mmwah...
Friday 9 November 2007
Rolling and Swimming
3 Nov 2007
Now you are on your 16 weeks old. Even I still haven’t gained weight after hospitalized, but my stomach grows bigger. I also hope that you still can grow normally.
One thing the midwife taught me while I was hospitalized that how to detect where you are. During the first months of pregnancy, you are located somewhere under my stomach. You will move up the next few months and in the later stage you will go down again, preparing yourself to come out. J
Then, I need to find a form like a ball.. it is you.. I can feel you, like ticking.. It is your heartbeat.. Now Ayah can also detect where you are..
But during your first months, you like to move a lot.. you roll here and there.. Ayah always says that you are swimming.. hehe.. even when you are examined by midwife, they sometimes found difficulty in finding where you are, when you were rolling here and there.
Now you are on your 16 weeks old. Even I still haven’t gained weight after hospitalized, but my stomach grows bigger. I also hope that you still can grow normally.
One thing the midwife taught me while I was hospitalized that how to detect where you are. During the first months of pregnancy, you are located somewhere under my stomach. You will move up the next few months and in the later stage you will go down again, preparing yourself to come out. J
Then, I need to find a form like a ball.. it is you.. I can feel you, like ticking.. It is your heartbeat.. Now Ayah can also detect where you are..
But during your first months, you like to move a lot.. you roll here and there.. Ayah always says that you are swimming.. hehe.. even when you are examined by midwife, they sometimes found difficulty in finding where you are, when you were rolling here and there.
Ayah
3 November 2007
One night, finally, your dad told me what he wants you to call him. “AYAH…”
I always thought we will be ‘mama and papa..’
I don’t mind with Ayah. But he also told me that I will be “IBU…”
Hm,, that one I’m not sure yet. I’m not sure that ‘Ibu’ is the right name for me. If he chooses ‘Ayah’, I would prefer ‘Bunda’ to go with ‘Ayah’. But I also still think about it. What do you prefer Kiddo/i? Ibu or Bunda. I guess ‘mama’ is out of the picture now. Hehe..
One night, finally, your dad told me what he wants you to call him. “AYAH…”
I always thought we will be ‘mama and papa..’
I don’t mind with Ayah. But he also told me that I will be “IBU…”
Hm,, that one I’m not sure yet. I’m not sure that ‘Ibu’ is the right name for me. If he chooses ‘Ayah’, I would prefer ‘Bunda’ to go with ‘Ayah’. But I also still think about it. What do you prefer Kiddo/i? Ibu or Bunda. I guess ‘mama’ is out of the picture now. Hehe..
The Dream
Eyang kakung (my dad, well, he haven't known what he would like you to call him..) dreamt of you when I was hospitalized. When I returned home (your dad and I stay for a while at Eyang’s home), he told me about his dream. He said that he saw you.. and you are a girl. He also heard your name in his dream. He said he will tell us when you are born.
Let’s see… if you are a girl or a boy..
I used to dream of a daughter. But now, I don’t really care,, I will love you so much anyway, even you’re a girl or a boy. I only pray that you are and you always be in a perfect health.
Let’s see… if you are a girl or a boy..
I used to dream of a daughter. But now, I don’t really care,, I will love you so much anyway, even you’re a girl or a boy. I only pray that you are and you always be in a perfect health.
Hospitalized
31 Oct'07
It was the second day of Lebaran day, Monday, October 14th, 2007… your mom and dad, together with Pakde Djoko went to Tante Katrin’s house in the morning for Lebaran.. We had lunch there. From there, we stopped by at Citos for some ice cream at Pisa Ice Cream. We waited there until 3.30 p.m.
At 4 p.m. we arrived at tanah kusir. We gathered with everyone else to pray at Nini-Aki grave. Having read the Yassin, I couldn’t stand up. My stomach hurt, so I couldn’t go to the other graves. I thought it was because I sat too long in an inconvenience position. I waited for a while in the car, but the hurt didn’t stop.. It got worse..
So, your mom and dad decided to go to hospital. We went straight to RS Pondok Indah. The hurt was getting worse and worse.. everybody followed us to the hospital. Your eyang (hmm,, I don’t know yet what they want you to call them..), budhe Dyah and Pakde Pierre, eyang Ninik, eyang Arifin, Nita Titien, Akung Yoyok, Ati Tutut..
I got a painkiller injection at the emergency room.. but it didn’t do any good for me. I still feel the hurt.. they checked on you.. thank God, your heartbeat was still beating hard. The second injection still didn’t make me any better. Then they took blood test on me.
Finally, I’m officially hospitalized at 10 p.m.
The hospital sent me some dinner.. but I couldn’t eat the dinner.. after the first 2 bites, I threw up everything I ate. I couldn’t have even few sips of water. It was horrible.
The next morning, they asked me fasting, while they were waiting for the lab result, until one of the doctors came. He said that something wrong in my pancreas (they called it ‘pancreatritis’). It produced enzyme in a much more than it normally does. The normal number is 100, while mine produced 5,000!! And it may cause damage to other part of my digestion system.
The treatment was to have me not eating and drinking anything (totally fasting) for approximately 7 days. They gave me enough nutrition and minerals for you and me through infuse. To take out the enzyme and all other liquid in my bilge, a sort of soft pipe was implanted in my bilge through my nose. It hurt when it was fixed in my body and after that I couldn’t speak and swallow anything.
Your dad couldn’t stand to see me in such a pain. He couldn’t stop his tears from falling when we heard the doctor’s diagnosis. He stayed with me all the time. He took some days off from work. I realized more that he loves us very much, Kiddy/o… J
Not to mention that infuse made my blood vessel swell. They replaced the infuse 3 times, but the result still the same. Finally the doctor decided to place the infuse from my vena in my chest. I didn’t know that for such purpose I had to take a minor operation. As if it wasn’t enough, I had to wait for more than an hour in the operation room and it was difficult to find my vena since it is too small, plus I was dehydrated because the latest electrolyte infuse was at 7 a.m. while the operation was at 4 p.m. The doctors had to try in 7 different places until they found the vena, meaning I also had to take 7 local anesthetics. Your dad, eyang and eyang Ninik waited for me for 3 hours. They were also so worry why it took so long.
We were so worry about you. I kept asking the doctor for every medicine I took, whether it was safe for you. They said all the medicine and treatment were safe for the baby, and they took the minimum actions to prevent any risk for you. They also kept checking your condition 3 times per day. It was like a power to keep me fight the sickness when we heard your heartbeat from that small heartbeat detector machine.
So many families and friends visited me, prayed and cared for us. Thank you God for all their love and attention..
Thank God, the implant pipe can be taken out within 4 days because the lab result showed normal result of lipase and amylase enzymes. I could start eating although all must be blended first. It was hard at the first time, after few days of fasting. It was on Thursday evening.. or Friday..
On Monday the following week, infuse can be released from my chest. I went back to the operation room, but this time is much faster. On Tuesday, 23 October 2007, after 9 days being hospitalized, I could go home and I could have more rest at home until the following week.
I really hope that you are fine and healthy. I am so worry about you. I lost weight during hospitalized and I also still worry about the medicine I took. I did some research on websites on the drugs I took. All indicate that it is OK to be taken by pregnant women. Now I am worry about gaining weight. It’s been a week after I am at home, but the food I can eat is still very limited. I have to reduce fat and any food that is hard to digest. Yesterday, Tuesday 30 October 2007, I went to doctor for check up. The result of the blood test wasn’t very good. My lipase enzyme was still a little bit beyond the normal range. The doctor only said that I have to be really careful for what I eat. He also stopped all the medicine I took.
My dear child, thank you for being strong for me. I will really try to do the best I can do to keep you safe and grow healthily. God, please keep the 3 of us safe and healthy.
It was the second day of Lebaran day, Monday, October 14th, 2007… your mom and dad, together with Pakde Djoko went to Tante Katrin’s house in the morning for Lebaran.. We had lunch there. From there, we stopped by at Citos for some ice cream at Pisa Ice Cream. We waited there until 3.30 p.m.
At 4 p.m. we arrived at tanah kusir. We gathered with everyone else to pray at Nini-Aki grave. Having read the Yassin, I couldn’t stand up. My stomach hurt, so I couldn’t go to the other graves. I thought it was because I sat too long in an inconvenience position. I waited for a while in the car, but the hurt didn’t stop.. It got worse..
So, your mom and dad decided to go to hospital. We went straight to RS Pondok Indah. The hurt was getting worse and worse.. everybody followed us to the hospital. Your eyang (hmm,, I don’t know yet what they want you to call them..), budhe Dyah and Pakde Pierre, eyang Ninik, eyang Arifin, Nita Titien, Akung Yoyok, Ati Tutut..
I got a painkiller injection at the emergency room.. but it didn’t do any good for me. I still feel the hurt.. they checked on you.. thank God, your heartbeat was still beating hard. The second injection still didn’t make me any better. Then they took blood test on me.
Finally, I’m officially hospitalized at 10 p.m.
The hospital sent me some dinner.. but I couldn’t eat the dinner.. after the first 2 bites, I threw up everything I ate. I couldn’t have even few sips of water. It was horrible.
The next morning, they asked me fasting, while they were waiting for the lab result, until one of the doctors came. He said that something wrong in my pancreas (they called it ‘pancreatritis’). It produced enzyme in a much more than it normally does. The normal number is 100, while mine produced 5,000!! And it may cause damage to other part of my digestion system.
The treatment was to have me not eating and drinking anything (totally fasting) for approximately 7 days. They gave me enough nutrition and minerals for you and me through infuse. To take out the enzyme and all other liquid in my bilge, a sort of soft pipe was implanted in my bilge through my nose. It hurt when it was fixed in my body and after that I couldn’t speak and swallow anything.
Your dad couldn’t stand to see me in such a pain. He couldn’t stop his tears from falling when we heard the doctor’s diagnosis. He stayed with me all the time. He took some days off from work. I realized more that he loves us very much, Kiddy/o… J
Not to mention that infuse made my blood vessel swell. They replaced the infuse 3 times, but the result still the same. Finally the doctor decided to place the infuse from my vena in my chest. I didn’t know that for such purpose I had to take a minor operation. As if it wasn’t enough, I had to wait for more than an hour in the operation room and it was difficult to find my vena since it is too small, plus I was dehydrated because the latest electrolyte infuse was at 7 a.m. while the operation was at 4 p.m. The doctors had to try in 7 different places until they found the vena, meaning I also had to take 7 local anesthetics. Your dad, eyang and eyang Ninik waited for me for 3 hours. They were also so worry why it took so long.
We were so worry about you. I kept asking the doctor for every medicine I took, whether it was safe for you. They said all the medicine and treatment were safe for the baby, and they took the minimum actions to prevent any risk for you. They also kept checking your condition 3 times per day. It was like a power to keep me fight the sickness when we heard your heartbeat from that small heartbeat detector machine.
So many families and friends visited me, prayed and cared for us. Thank you God for all their love and attention..
Thank God, the implant pipe can be taken out within 4 days because the lab result showed normal result of lipase and amylase enzymes. I could start eating although all must be blended first. It was hard at the first time, after few days of fasting. It was on Thursday evening.. or Friday..
On Monday the following week, infuse can be released from my chest. I went back to the operation room, but this time is much faster. On Tuesday, 23 October 2007, after 9 days being hospitalized, I could go home and I could have more rest at home until the following week.
I really hope that you are fine and healthy. I am so worry about you. I lost weight during hospitalized and I also still worry about the medicine I took. I did some research on websites on the drugs I took. All indicate that it is OK to be taken by pregnant women. Now I am worry about gaining weight. It’s been a week after I am at home, but the food I can eat is still very limited. I have to reduce fat and any food that is hard to digest. Yesterday, Tuesday 30 October 2007, I went to doctor for check up. The result of the blood test wasn’t very good. My lipase enzyme was still a little bit beyond the normal range. The doctor only said that I have to be really careful for what I eat. He also stopped all the medicine I took.
My dear child, thank you for being strong for me. I will really try to do the best I can do to keep you safe and grow healthily. God, please keep the 3 of us safe and healthy.
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